Reiki and Nursing

Crying baby. Tired baby. Angry baby. Why won't you listen, he yells. I'm tired! I've been tired for hours!!!!
I feel guilt, sorry, forgiveness, thankfulness, guilt, sorry, forgiveness, thankfulness. guilt, sorry, forgiveness, gratitude. Tired.
His head on my bicep, his neck in my pit, he's suckling, and the channels tingle. My hand palm faces upwards, and the opposite nipple covered by the center of my palm, the energy, the life-force, the Chi, the prana, the Ki, the Qi, that essential thing flows through...

Now, in a sort of post-coital quiet, the still after the storm of sounds, our temperatures have evened out, but now a little flushed. now, reflecting on the profound guilt followed by a deep release... taking in all the garbage i can on my body, carrying it over to the compost pile, and then releasing it, over and over can be exhausting, but quicker and quicker every time.

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In other news, yesterday i met a wise, radiant child of 13 years. A problem i see with/for mothers, a challenge, is that they are exhausted of their resources of love and presence due to an imbalance somewhere in the system. Depleted, and then unable to be fully present, completely seeing their child for the miraculous amazing beauty they are, all the time. If we mothers could master that, the future generations will be saved!! Its a tall order, i know, because its still a lot of work. But i have faith that once the ball gets rolling, its a lot of fun and we won't ever want to go back!!! No more distractions, frustrations, grievances, compulsions, obsessions, delusions, illusions keeping us out of the present moment, but pure story, and pure, non-symbolic, limitless possibility, creatively loving and completely loving... in a space of love... everything is brigher.

The work it requires is to remove the barriers within us to love. Sounds like a "quote" -By Someone, and thus, much easier said than done.
Then, repeating, over and over, going back to the source, and re-wiring our process into a new reality... Its so difficult!!! But i'm keeping the faith that its possible, because now that i've seen it i can't possibly give up! The prize is just too good.

The good news is, or The thing that is to take the pressure off, is that the kids will be okay.

Anyway, keep a light heart.
May you Be in a space of love.
Always